my eyes are burning to be shut
my fingers are aching to be heard
and i find no comfort here
no where to run
so i stay still
blank
until it comes over me
the beat
movement
a way to be free
words
sounds
a universe inside me
i retreat to my universe
the sea

i dont need comfort
i am earth

you are the worst thing in the world for me

mx

i remember once you told me
"people like us share a communion"
a fellowship like ours was not to be matched by those smiling consumers
the masses
and i believed you
i surrendered to your thoughts
that cut through the gray we surround ourselves in
you always had the most beautiful way of making black and white
seem like a rainbow
even the most blunt truths
taste sweet in the end
you are a corner stone of inspiration
a man

one
of
a
kind

never crushed by life
and the filth
up and angry
coffee and cigarettes
fuel for what magic happens when you open your mind
what beauty you spill into a world that may not deserve you
i am proud to be one of the few to be called your audience
to have been in a lions den


and soon the sun will orbit you for the 44th time
i hope it blesses you with health and happiness
you deserve it

Opium Winter

I feel the dark embrace of past desires all around me
you feel the sun beat down your door
dont answer
besides it will only fall beneath the horizon
lay down near me
touch the space between us till it sends shivers down your spine
look into me
get lost
the energy inside me will become your opium
outside is winter
frozen with never ending stress
ill stay still
warm you
make time behave
we dont have to laugh
we dont have to be entertained
we can let truth sweep on top of us
and just be
i dont need the answers
to co exist
just want to feel peace
i feel my organs
keeping me alive
never complaining
and i finally appreciate them
remarkable oxygen
keeping you from falling away
suddenly this globe makes sense
if only for a moment
if it were all this simple
i just want to feel home
where is my home
no more questions
not now
let me have this
my opium winter

feel it all around

Nephilim

Do not be mistaken i am not human
i can take the shape of flesh and bones
but there is no humanity inside
my eyes penetrate you
they search your energy
i use sex for fuel
the last remaining entertainment on this low light globe
nothing
will
change
my
mind
do
not
look
for
my
soul
you
will
find
darkness




("There were giants (Hebrew: Nephilim) in the earth in those days, and also after that, when the Sons of God (angels) came unto the daughters of men (humans) and they bare children to them (a hybrid, mutant race, part human, part angelic) the mutant offspring were giants, physically and mentally superior to humans, yet they were brutish, sensual, violent and immoral, and they were all males. It is likely that the various mythological figures of some ancient cultures are distorted stories of these very Nephilim, and the condition of society prior to the great deluge, which destroyed them all.


OR
DID
THEY
SURVIVE?

I
AM
THE
DAUGHTER
OF
MAN