orange dress

you were right
i dont believe ill find another man like you
thank you
and even though i wouldnt change a thing
im so happy the universe has only one of you
one beautiful evil you
the one that seeps into my fantasies
gave me true inspiration
dashed my hopes
brought me lower then dirt
there is only you
you invited deep pain
you told great lies
however awful you were
i think i could have stayed in that pain forever
because after all is said and done
you have no desire to be saved either
the passing moments of peace and kindness make the world feel unbearable
what would the world be if you couldn't have the girls on strings
and what would my world be with out the hope of taming a wild beast
even as a girl the church knew the way to my heart
to pet a lion without fear
to love something you know could rip you open any moment
and to have faith that they wont
but you did
didnt you
so no i dont regret a thing
i had faith in you
and i know you think of me
however little time you give me
im there
and you are here with me
and we have those moments between us
i still own that dress
and i will never wear it again

please stop

stop choking on your tears girl
what is it about you that makes me turn into this
im strong
you have to see it

the only thing that scares me
is that look in your eye
the one that tells me you are toying

you hold my hand and my heart slides right into your grasp
so stop

i want to connect your dots
no urge to solve your problems
just kiss me one more time
tell me sweet lies with those pink lips

stop talking to me
stop looking at me from across the room
stop making me feel 17

i cant pretend not to feel
i cant want less from you

so ill choke on these tears
they well up in my throat
its just frustration
because even if i lean in closer
and touch your face gently
you wont see me

you dont see me

if you ever stopped to look
you would see that my eyes are telling you the truth
how could they lie to you

i want to see you clear
you are something to be seen

i want her too

Disco Zombie

in a past life i was vinyl and the needle was my lover
we were naughty
and we came back as human
so i spend my days being a good girl
and one day ill die
when i awake my needle will greet me

he makes a soft and deep scratch
that i can not resist
the sound he makes makes me move without control
he takes all control

the love i have remains in a dark room
where screams are born
till my needle returns

until then i remain a disco zombie
i roam the dance floor begging for my needle
the only man who makes me complete

my needle never bores me
or disappoints me
he touchs me so right
wont you be my needle
just tonight

why not

you fit the mold ive created for my recreation
so why not
i cant seem to sense your soul
did you lose it?
was it so bad?
did she take it from you?
i can give it back to you
let me heal you with the taste of my sweat
bite my flesh and feel yourself reborn in sweet sin
how did you feel so good?
how was it all so wrong?
you give nothing away
do i pursue...do i retreat
im lost in the game
if you dont choose right
i will evacuate