black

the spots in my mind that are bright are slowly being covered in black
ounces of hopes slip through my filter
leaving only grinds and murk
i slowly forget love
i am forgeting what made me human
but i still havent harden yet
i make the attemps daily
what makes me move...
i could lay still forever
ash to ash
dust to dust
was i ever solid?
i am dust
i am ash
only a shell
holding my ash
my liquids ran out
i spewed every last tear
every last cum
every last drop of blood
and i am removed from my humanity
i no longer reach to heal
or be healed
i want this earth to burn
i feel nothing for this world
let it fall to the black
it all goes black in the end
im ready for the end