i want so much more this time
not to just look in your eyes
or your soul
i want the world to stand still
i want your touch to stop my restless body
and you dont exist
im dying each day
to be special
to be popular
to be seen
when all i want is to find my peace in this world
instead i find meaningless one night stands
when all i have is love in my heart
i want to connect
i want to feel flesh
i want to consume
and nothing is ever enough
stop making my body ache for you
im starving alone without you
with every superficial light
with every bad decision
am i on the path away from ever finding you?
where do I turn?
when i can no longer trust myself.